i long to be loved

Posted on October 27th, 2006 in Uncategorized by abbey llanes

There’s nothing wrong with  being single. It’s nice to be free. To stay out late every night. I can wear whatever I want. I can be just my plain old self. The whole world sees that I can take care of myself. But to tell you the truth, I wouldn’t mind having someone walk me home. I wouldn’t mind wanting to look good or trying to be better for someone. I wouldn’t mind letting someone hold me when I’m just too weak to go on. It’s nice to be free, but I wouldn’t mind being bound to some who loves me. =(

Even though I plagiarized the above quote from a text message, reality does bite.

I don’t know why guys cheat. They just do, and that sucks..

hoodwinked

Posted on October 24th, 2006 in Uncategorized by abbey llanes

"Do I have to sleep with roses in my hands to show you how much I love you?"
                                                                                                           — John Mayer

 

Nice lyrics. Too bad it doesn’t
make sense. It’s a good thing he has poetic license. I’m amazed he used the
word "show" instead of "prove".

 

Proving yourself or proving
something is such a guy thing. Women don’t have that kind of insecurity because
we know that in the end, we will be proven right.

 

But then again, the female of the
species is, without a doubt, odd.

 

We constantly ask (or is it annoy?) our guy to the point of beleaguering,
to say or show us how much they love us. I don’t know why we even bother. We
know it’s not true anyway. We are so venal. We let our psyche be swayed by
sweet words and gestures.

 

Do not misconstrue me. I don’t
hate men, I’m just trying to vent my aggravation. I know the difficulty of
playing the classic hero, until he finds someone else, that is.

 

Anyhow, held a survey just now
about the topic. Below are some nifty responses about how a guy could show how
much he loves a girl.

 

· Flowers,
no doubt. (Philip Cabugao) *I was just saying..*

· By doing
everything and anything just to make her happy. (Paula Domingo)

· Stay.
Despite the pain. Stay. Despite Feeling alone. (Christian Natividad)

· Ends up
doing what he hates most it pleases her. (Corin Nefalar)

· Goes out
of his way just to be with the girl. (Art Genota)

· When a
man can be [sic] beside a girl without thinking of screwing her and can spend
the whole night just listening to her. (Jen Villalobos)

· By
taking a leap of faith. Going beyond his comfort zone just so he can express
his love. (Dianne Feeney)

· Could be
anything. Knowing how to lift the girl’s spirit when one feels really down.
(Tina Buendia)

· If he
rushes for his cellphone when it beeps even if he is in the CR just o see if
it’s his girl who’s calling or texting. (Minong Arzadon)

· By being
faithful to the girl. (Amber Zulueta)

· Sacrifice
sa time nya, patience at passion. (Jen "Muymuy" Perez)

So, how does a guy show me that he
loves me? I have no idea.

**Hit me with your comments if you feel like adding your own to the list. Have a good one! =)

 

Tchotchkes

Posted on October 20th, 2006 in Uncategorized by abbey llanes

Posted my graduation photo today. It’s funny how time flies.  Didn’t really think I’d get this far.

When I was in high school, I wasn’t the most popular girl in class. I wasn’t popular at all. I dressed weird and I acted funny. I wasn’t the smartest. Most of the kids in the high school I went to were mean, jealous, vindictive, and scheming. Typical Pinoys who, as soon as they were able to earn a little money, abused bragging rights, and preyed on the weak. People who didn’t have anything better to do than gossip and back stab. God, I hated high school. Except for a few handful, the rest were so fake.

Wonder who’s laughing now, eh bambz? *wink*

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Just got back from

Palawan

where I spent a couple of days on the beach. It wasn’t very relaxing but it was a good break from the hustle and bustle of city life. Even if I didn’t want to admit it, it was a welcome change.

I’ve never seen the ocean as azure and as calm as that in

Palawan

. The beaches are pristine. The place, however, was absolutely teeming with mosquitoes. I thought I’d have malaria or some other insect-borne disease when I got back.

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I have officially quit smoking. I haven’t lighted up for a week now. What made me stop? The guy I sort-of-like told me I smelled nice (actually, I think he was referring to my shampoo), but same shit, I still smelled good.

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I have had a rude awakening during the time I was away. I realized that guys naturally cheat on girls. That no matter who I get married to, that guy would eventually cheat on me too. Even if he says he doesn’t, he won’t or he ever will not. Especially if the guy is currently cheating with you (that is, he’s cheating on someone WITH you; e.g.: the legit GF); that only means he’ll cheat on you too if you did get together.

Another thing I’ve realized is why I haven’t reigned in a guy yet. It’s because I don’t really work on the relationship. I lose interest as soon as the guy shows his lack of interest in the relationship. I don’t know why, but I seem to think that there are a ton of guys just waiting for me to keel over and date me in a heart beat. Funny huh? I actually know just one person who would.

Superiority complex or not, I am yet to find the guy who I know would fight to keep me. That would be so cool. The stuff that archaic love stories are made of. Yes, deep inside, and after you’ve rummaged through the angst and skepticism, I am a hopeless romantic.

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Sorry if this post seems weird. I feel weird right now, so uninspired to write. I hope I get a blog-worthy revelation to write about soon. I think my brain has atrophied over the break. This probably explains why this post is a mishmash of whatever runs through my mind as I type; a no-brainer kind of thing.

P.S. >> What a fitting title. *snigger*

an announcement

Posted on October 13th, 2006 in Uncategorized by abbey llanes

School’s been out for a while. I will be going to the boondocks for a few days but I promise I will post something read-worthy when I get back.

Thanks for the comments. Y’all keep safe.

supposedly my swan song

Posted on October 4th, 2006 in Uncategorized by abbey llanes

Ok. I know I said I’d be retiring from blog life. But then how could I when  lot of my friends are asking why and telling me I shouldn’t.

Thank you so much! Here’s to more..

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