fRom the 4 coRneRs of my mind II

How happy is the blameless Vestal’s lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot.Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. Each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d. - Alexander Pope

I love the quote and I love the movie even more. I think I saw it with Lai.

This is a reply to D’s comment. Tama si John Lloyd — hindi totoo and true love. I hate falling falling in love but I am in love with the idea of falling in love. Makes sense daba??

My emotional truth — I wish there is such a thing as being able to erase the memory of a particular relationship. It would be one of wry realism or maybe sci-fi (if you’re a geek!). In the movie, Joel has his memory erased because he can’t live in a world without Clementine and realizing halfway through the procedure that a universe without her would be blue and meaningless. So the object now is not to let go but to hang on. It is sad and depressing yet oddly beautiful.

Maybe erasing a memory could be done in a Windows environment where you could click, filter what you want to keep, and delete those you want put into the recycle bin. Push it out of your mind for a while and then decide later on if you’d want it perpetually removed and start over, tabularasa-style.

• First date > Delete! *bleep*
• First kiss > Delete! *bleep*
• Sweet nothings > Delete! *bleep*
• Movie dates > Delete! *bleep*
• Witty Repartee > Delete! *bleep*
• Lying and cheating > Delete! *bleep*
• Incessant bickering and arguing > Delete! *bleep*
• Heartwrenching break-up > Delete! *bleep*
• The Guy > Format Disk > "Are You Sure? This would mean that all data will be deleted and everything lost." > Y
• *BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP*
• "Memory erased".

The screwball guy and absurd relationship is nothing more than a glitch in my screen. Ignorance is bliss.

I don’t intend to live a life of quiet desperation. Must stop this foolishness.   

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This was posted by Annoi Monteza in the bulletin board. Yeah, she’s the FEU-IL "Bold Star", Angela to our very own Wilfred The Porn God! Got a kick out of this post for two reasons: (1) she, dianne and I are always arguing about who has the crummiest lovelife among us. I would have to concede. Compared to their’s, mine’s considerably charmed. They have been suckered into quicksand while in my case, I AM THE QUICKSAND! *hoot*; (2) heard this Macy Gray song in the car while I was with a "friend" [showbiz!!] and I thought about posting it, twist of fate, if you may call it to so, but annoi has already beaten me into posting it. Macy Gray has plagiarised my lovelife yet again!!

You might wanna read up on annoi’s posts if you’re a succker for sappy, sad stuff or for a satirical perspective on falling in, out,  and moving on. They’re very entertaining if not enlightening.

http://the_one_that_got_away.blogs.friendster.com/blogblogan_na/

I’m hoping 2006 will be a better year for me and for all the "bitter ocampos" out there. Here’s to the wounds!!

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mga kapatid sa pananampalataya…nabuhay na nman ako.. sa araw na ito, magpakasenti tayo… para ‘to sa mga: in love sinusubukang mainlove tingin ay in love nagpupumilit maging inlove at nagpipigil maging inlove…(uuuy…may tinatamaan) wehehe mga girlaloo…okay lang yan. tandaan lamang…hindi lahat ng darating sa enkantadia ay mga prinsipe. maraming hator ang magpupumilit na kunin ang pinakakaiingatan nating brilyante: ang BRILYANTE ng PAG-IBIG. wahahha! sa mga hindi naman kapuso, kundi kapamilya…hindi lahat ng darating ay siyang tunay na PANDAY… hehe… so here it goes: I TRY by Macy Gray Games, changes and fears When will they go from here When will they stop I believe that fate has brought us here And we should be together But we’re not I play it off but I’m dreaming of you I’ll keep my cool but I’m fiendin. I try to say goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it’s clear My world crumbles when you are not near Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it’s clear My world crumbles when you are not near I may appear to be free But I’m just a prisoner of your love I may seem alright and smile when you leave But my smiles are just a front I play it off but I’m dreamin of you I’ll keep my cool but I’m fiendin I try to say goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it’s clear My world crumbles when you are not near Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it it’s clear My world crumbles when you are not near Here is my confession May I be your possession Boy I need your touch Your love kisses and such With all my might I try But this I can’t deny I play it off but I’m dreaming of you I’ll keep my cool but I’m fiendin I try to say goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it it’s clear My world crumbles when you are not near… SAPOL TAYO JAN! wehehe

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Went on a drinking binge last night. Dammit.. it hurts me to admit this, and it probably hurts jay and jr too, but we are certifiably ‘outcasts‘. It’s bad enough that we’re shunned by the FEU peeps, now we have to contend being shunned by the 1L peeps too. *sniff sniff sob sob*. The evning wasn’t such a disaster, Ian was there!! I love my life… everyday is a gift!! well, we proved something, and that is, the three of us would stick with each other through thick and thin. Nothing could be more solid! Much love bros. *smoochies*

It’s not us, it’s them (or you reader!!). We set the bar too high; or so we would like to believe, at a futile attempt to console ourselves. Tsktsk. Got soooo lonely last night drinking at the bar so we decided to continue it in my place. What a bunch of losers. They even asked me to cook and I had to drink beer. This is not pity talk. I’m glad jay took over or I would have burnt our house down!! Well, i can tell that I am the prettiest who attended the party (??) last night. I’m not shitting you!! I have photos to prove it. 

Anyhow, got gripes and imma let ‘em pour.

I hate how my relationships are always complicated. I don’t consider myself a cold, calculating heartbreaker but I reckon what I’m getting right now is some form of karmic payback. I always fall (??) for the wrong guys and am always making a fool of myself. Yeah, I’m doing it for all you kids out in the stands who can’t  afford the circus!!

I thought i had my whole system worked out. Play the field, date around (but don’t be slutty), screen the guys, and never go out with someone you don’t personally know. Apparently, there is a flaw in my system. I am yet to getting the bug fixed.

Its helluva tough being a girl. It’s hard having to fend guys you don’t like off; and reeling in the guys you do like. Fighting fiercely to have dominion around me when all the while knowing I won’t win. Great!! Annoi’s condition is contagious!! I swear the universe is just waiting for me to keel over!! Gotta find someone who fits the somewhat elusive and jaded abbey-pallate.

Gimme a minute.. I’m asking God to kill me now.

I’ll never sleep again if this ‘relationship‘ gets mucked up. But then again I’ll have to bite my tongue on that. It is doomed from the start and yet again I am living in a fool’s paradise.

CHIKKA MINUTE>> Sino ang babaeng itech na nag confess na crush nya ang longtime-sworn enemy nya nung nalasing xa?? I honestly thought the acoustics must be faulty in balcony8 when she told me about it!! Too bad the guy has his eye on my proposed class geek!! *hoot* Law school’s messed eveyone up.

TTFN!!!       

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I just love this poem. It’s inspiring. Incidentally (or is it ironic [?]) enough, I first read it in a dentist’s clinic. I remember Ian Valencia talking about in one of our 1L drinking binges.                                                                                             

Before anything else, Christmas  is just around the corner, let’s spread the holiday cheer everyone! I’ve done my part, I’ve asked grouchy law profs to stop being a grinch and give everyone a free cut. Let’s study hard and party harder. Here’s to four years of digesting cases, recits, exams, fervent praying for free cuts and emote-moments over brewskis! It’s been a great year!

By the way, Desiderata is Latin for "Things to be Desired."

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– written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s —
Not "Found in Old St. Paul’s Church"! — see below

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

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Men are pigs! Was talking to MJ this morning and we got into talking about our crummy (??) lovelives. I’m not hooked up so I don’t have a prob, she however has her hands full with a mutually accepted dillusion with her boyfriend. Most (read: NOT ALL!!)  boyfriends are assholes. It’s part of their genetic code — like farting. I’ve known a lot of assholes but her boyfriend takes that cake. She said it herself! I’m not dissing him because I personally hate him (which I do. You wouldn’t believe all the awful stuff he’s told about me!! FGLG!! &#%$^!!) but because he treats my friend bad. He’s turning my friend to a ticking timebomb. Almost every phonecall with her turns out to be a lachrymose occassion. Your guy is sooooo thick, nothing ever sticks.

May sent me an email today. It’s a great read; but then again I am partial to SATC wisdom. Thanks ma! I’m sharing it with you guys. Enjoy! Imma get some shut-eye muna.

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Sex and the City Wisdom

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Here are a few of the famous lines of Carrie,Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte.

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want
you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man’s character, leave him.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

6. Don’t force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can’t "be friends." A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don’t let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don’t settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship–take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don’t stay because you think "it will get better." You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren’t involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There’s only one ‘reason’ a man dumps you; he doesn’t want you.

18. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. If he doesn’t call, he just isn’t that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don’t be strung along.

26. Don’t fall for the "I’m confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don’t wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There’s more than physical abuse, there’s emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them…flee.

29. You cannot change a man’s behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don’t let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself –double-standard.

31. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has better education or in a better job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man,nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can’t give it, he can’t have you!

34. Don’t compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he’s lying, leave him.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are.

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else’s man.

40. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn’t mean that he won’t hurt you and it doesn’t mean that you are meant to be with him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom –’get it right’ the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the number one person in your life.

44. Love is a verb.

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

47. All men are NOT dogs.

48. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a  Two way street.

49. If you don’t love yourself…you can’t love anyone else.

50. You cannot mend someone else’s broken heart.

51. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage…deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complementary…not supplementary.

53. Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.

54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.

55. Never become your man’s "therapist".

56. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions. Respond to the actions.

57. A real healthy relationship requires two people. One person can end it - but it takes two to make it work.

58. Don’t fall for the "I’m not the loving type"…when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn’t do for you.

59. Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are,
and you’re always readily available to him he takes you for granted.

60. Give him his space…let him go out with his boys, don’t pressure him to spend time with you, You cant force a man to hang out with you.

61. If you wouldn’t allow your daughter to be with him you shouldn’t.

62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

63. Never move into his mother’s house.

64. Provide financially for yourself and don’t depend on anyone.

65. Never co-sign for a man.

66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.

67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.

68. Never let a man mess up your credit.

69. When it’s time to let go; let go.

70. Good men should be treated like good men.

71. Don’t play games.

72. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that
you need.

73. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs,
personal and career goals, and socioeconomic status, are important.

75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts.

 

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